Content1. First encounter72. Memories emerge233. Hit on the trauma374. Back in time on the island455. Backing off656. Truth is dawning697. At last, her true passion778. Desperately seeking849. The first clue8810. Things become clear9511. Gathered10412. Diving in the past on the island11013. Marian12214. Thinking about the future12815. Filling in the gaps13916. What happened really, and why?14517. Close encounter14918. A stray daughter to complete157Coming out of a closet where you are hiding takes a lot of courage. And some luck.A man alone.Really alone, apathetic, almost dead inside, even though he is not that old.To his own great surprise, he addresses a woman in front of a restaurant. She is also alone, but still struggling. There is still life in her.Who is he? Who is she?What past has made him this way? And her?Like frightened snails, they circle each other, shooting into their shells at any sign of trouble.Will they come out?She does. Discovering she loves women.He does, too, at last, but it takes more.How an illegitimate child can fall from a heaven of pure bliss into an abyss of shame and humiliation. Not once, but twice. Two consecutive blows are too much for a fatherless adolescent to handle.It takes forty years before he dares to touch a woman again.A man was in his boyhood cherished by girls and women because he was beautiful, gentle and completely his own master in nature. When he was thirteen, his first sexual attempts were punished heavily. It has taken forty years to overcome this trauma. Still gentle, he wins the hearts of his sisters, a woman he meets at the door of a restaurant and even a "stray" foster daughter.