About the title: KARANDASH means PENCIL.But also name of a RUSSIAN CLOWN.In my poems I invite the reader to reflect on existence.Growth and the desire for loyalty and strength are central.I'm researching: 'I hope, expectation and the pursuit of a grip'.I'm researching: 'Saying goodbye, the memories of loved ones andprocessing loss'.The memories of beloved pets also get a place. But I would also like to describe the experience of novelty, regret and the search for beauty and security in later life.So my backyard becomes a paradise and even mosquitoes are viewedwith humor.