Preface 11History 15Practice 17Neurofeedback 23New life 27Married single 31Two jobs 33Put an end to it 35Letter to a Narcissist 37Killer 39Fertile soil 41Pedestal 43LOML 45Manipulating 49Sick little bird 53Tennis ball 57It's just money 59Playing around 63My own house 67To marry? 71Dip 75Cameras 79Toddler 83Unmasked 87Coward 95Thank you 101Letter to the new victim 103Dear New Victim 105Narcissism and NPD 111Narcissistic Personality Disorder 113How does narcissism arise? 115The tactics of a narcissist 117The vicious circle of the narcissist and his relationships 121Is narcissism/NPS treatable? 123Are you in a relationship with a narcissist? 125Afterword 127Acknowledgements 129Addendum 131Literature 133In this autobiography, Karina van Dreemel describes her personal experiences during her relationship with a narcissist. From their first meeting to the bizarre ending, she talks about the turbulent times she has been through. In the letter to her ex-partner, she addresses him about his behavior and reviews all the events. During her search for more information, it became clear how little is known about this personality disorder. She joined a support group for victims of narcissism and it soon became apparent that her story was just one of many. This was the reason for her to go public with her story. In the hope of more recognition and better help for the victims and their environment. And not to forget to open the eyes of those who are still in the middle of such a relationship.