In Amsterdam, Esme finds herself navigating the tumultuous waters of adolescence. Through the pages of her journal, she chronicles her problems in romantics, entwined in the spiral of drugs, cigarettes, and the constant ache of rejection and loneliness. As she grapples with the complexities of principles, friendship, and self-discovery, she must come to terms with the consequences of her choices and the weight of her actions, which she reflects upon in Antwerp.