After many years of backproblems I finally found the solution for me in a Fusion (Spondylodese. Since I missed information about what to be expected after the operation I decided to write a book about everything I experienced both before as well as after the operation. With this book I give you a glimpse in my world. How does it feel to live with immense pain 24 hours a day? And how did I experience the operation and the year after? This book is not only helpful for patients but also for their family and friends. How to help us or what not to do? With the original book written in Dutch I already received a lot of positive feedback. Now it is translated in English I hope it can be of help for even more people. Annelies Brems